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Usually the Fool's dark side is the malicious clown, the buffoon or sinister trickster who plays trickery tricks on people that can, on occasion, end up with the people being hurt. Most people certainly learn a lot from encountering the dark jester! SHe has many occult tricks up hir sleeve to outwit the unaware; to awaken the sleepy or poke fun at authority. The objective of the dark jester is not to hurt, but to ridicule in order to teach. Speaking the plain truth, devoid of attachment can often hurt whoever you're talking about.

But that's not what this rant is about. This rant is about the dark emotional inside of the fool. As SHe moves about the world encountering people, delighting them, tricking them and having fun with them, the fool also falls in love very easily. As easily as stepping off a cliff. Trusting in the universe and believing it will all be fine in the end. For a fool falling in love is as easy as dancing in the rain. Can you do that?

Well I danced in the rain and fell off the cliff - I fell in love with completely the wrong person - and now my darkness is churning churning churning with the bitter pain of being heart-broken... once again... so soon after sushi... Love hits hard, but falling off this cliff and feeling the rush of the earth as it zooms up towards me is even harder.

Oh to be rid of the Fool and to be a normal conservative straight-man like most of the people in the world. Oh if only my life would be simple and boring. If only I didn't care about the world. If only if only if only. I would have one partner, female, and I would have my life and future mapped out before me. I wouldn't think about climate change, corporate greed or the right to express myself. I'd probably watch sport, read the mainstream press and wank over the next release of whatever programming language is hot this week. I wouldn't fall in love because I would hardly even be aware of my emotions except when somebody hit a home run or scored a goal. I would block all emotions out and never ever cry. Never cry. Never.

But no... That's not me. I'm crying now see.

Instead I tread the crooked and windy path of the Fool. As well as joyful peaks, I must also learn to explore the emotional darkest pits. As well as the full celebration of life and lust, I have to fully feel the power of despair and anguish. And right now I must learn to deal with the intense pain and anguish of heart-break. A lesson hard to learn and a pain hard to embrace time after time ... after time ... after time ... after time ... after time ... after time ...

"You can walk a step ahead of me,
but that doesn't necessarily mean that I'm following you"
- Sahara Piksie

Here's a secret: This fool's power lies in experiencing the emotional world within and without as much as possible; living with a willingness to express all joy and pain when it arises; and living life to it's full potential by singing and dancing to imagined love songs in the rain. Now there's the fools challenge - can you do that?